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04 June 2006 @ 07:16 pm
Oh. So that's what a heart attack feels like.  
So...yeah. I finally understand the phrase 'scared stiff.'

My friend Catherine emailed me Thursday, asking me to go to her horse show with her following day. I hadn't seen her in about a month, so I jumped onboard, without thinking about work and how little sleep I was going to get. But I really was happy to go cuz I love Catherine, and I love her horse Gryphon too. And it's been so long since I was emmersed in that life I probably would have gone even if she asked me not to. But anyways, that's not really the important part.

She was entered in three classes, all at least 3' but probably closer to 3.3' and slightly higher. First two rounds went amazingly, considering the trouble they had last year, and Catherine's tendency towards self-deprication. the trouble came with the third round.

The third jump in the course is a triple bar. Just like it sounds, it's basically three jumps squished together as one. First bar is about a foot off the ground, second two feet, and the back bar is about three feet. All in all, it's about three feet wide, as well as high. She came to the jump just fine, but in the last couple of strides, things got a little weird. She ended up to close to the base, and Gryphon wasn't quite sure what to do with his feet. He started to jump, but dropped his right leg and caught the rail. He started to go down onto his knees, and Catherine flipped over his right shoulder. Gryphon kept falling, he fucking flipped end over end, his back feet straight up in the fricking air. Catherine landed right, he rolled over left and got up. Gryphon walked away, surprising all right, but Catherine was just laying there, not moving.

And I didn't do anything.

I just stood there, staring, while some weird stranger grabbed Gryphon and started cleaning the dirt of him, and the medic ran to Catherine. Eventually I moved, went to take Gryphon cause Catherine was surrounded. And they're both okay now, Gryphon scraped his nose a little, but other than that, is fine. And Catherine broke her collar bone on the left side, but jesus, seeing that fall, it should have been so much worse.

And I think that's why I can't get it out of my head. I thought she was dead, after she hit the dirt and Gryph got up, and she didn't move. I thought she was dead, and I didn't do anything at all. Intellectually, I know I'm not a doctor. Short of getting in the way, there isn't anything I could've helped with. Well, besides grab Gryphon, and I did that. I think the poor horse felt bad. He kept trying to walk over to Catherine, to check her out. But after a while he started trying to get at the mints in my pocket so I figured he was fine.

She doesn't remember any of it, though. She signed me some things while she was in the car, and she doesn't remember that. i talked to her that night, and she was saying she wished she had've stayed on. And I was just dumbfounded. If she stayed on, he would've crushed her, and she probably would be dead. I almost yelled at her, but then I realised she just didn't know. She had no clue that he flipped, and when I told her, she just started crying. I told her I'm pretty sure he rolled out of the way the direction he did so he wouldn't crush her. I don't know if I 100% believe it, but it made her feel better.

Anyways, they're both okay, especially considering the way it happened, but I just can't get past it.
exitosus on June 5th, 2006 06:21 am (UTC)
Jesus, that's some scary shit. I fell off a horse once but it wasn't nearly as bad as that. *hugs*
spikers91 on June 5th, 2006 06:17 pm (UTC)
I've fallen off a bunch of times, but the horse always kept his feet. I imagine it's quite a bit scarier when he falls next to you. :)
exitosus on June 5th, 2006 11:04 pm (UTC)
Glad, they're okay [:
Dancing_starsmmarinov on June 5th, 2006 08:51 am (UTC)
Man, that's scary! Really happy your friend and her horse are okay, though.
spikers91 on June 5th, 2006 06:18 pm (UTC)
Yeah, thank god they're both fine. It's scary to think that if he had rolled the other way, she probably wouldn't be around right now.